CONFRONTATION

How did I feel during the confrontation with the black men. Scared is too simple. Searching - for a way out. Aware of the difficulty of explaining The Boys Club and my relationship with Michael. Suspended might be how I felt. Suspended between two worlds - way beyond my usual desire for control of situations - way beyond my usual ability to talk my way out of difficult situations. Talk was superfluous. Body language was far more important. I was aware I was closed in by their bodies and I could not gesture like Leon to show I was not an average Honky. I was a victim because victims are in the control of a not understood superior force. In the end I was lucky. My penchant for serendipity held.